This last week has really sucked. The past few days have been extremely draining and emotionally painful. As I write this though things are slowly getting better or I am getting better at coping with it, its one of the two.
Last Sunday our Wire haired Fox Terrier Darby started acting strangely and not herself. We got her into the vet the next day and she was very lethargic and in pain. The vet started treatment for pancreitist since that was his guess, there was also some x-rays done. So her treatment was done by IV each day and we took her in and dropped her off before work. She was starting to respond and then on Wed I went home to get her at lunch since neither of us could get her there in the morning. She had thrown up and wasn’t doing well at all. We booked an appointment for her to get a ultrasound at University of Illinois vet clinic about a hour away and took here there that afternoon. She woke up that morning and gave me a few kisses to show me that her tongue was still working somewhat. It’s the one thing she would do every morning and I had really been missing it. They shaved her belly down a little then gave her the ultrasound. She had multiple pancreatic abscesses along with fluid build up and something that might have been cancer. Even if they did surgery the outcome wasn’t good. After having a breakdown there in the waiting room we decided to bring her home.
We came home Thursday for our last night together. Her original parents came over to the house to say goodbye to her. She wasn’t feeling well was on pain meds so she was there enough to say her goodbyes as well. Friday morning we went into the vet for the last time and I held her head as she went to sleep.
I had told Tracy once that I had never had such a bond with an animal before. I was pretty much useless on Friday and wasn’t all the well the rest of the weekend either. We had only had her 3 years but she had become such a integrated part of the household that things aren’t the same without her. Her “brother”, Rufus, isn’t sure what is going on either. He keeps giving us looks like he wants to know when Darby is coming home. Those two had bonded as well and it is easy to see his sadness as well. Plus I think he might be getting made at me since I keep picking him up to cuddle. He’s not into cuddling much.
The week prior to all this we had signed up to do the Ride For The Cure to benefit breast cancer research. We still took the ride Saturday and we had a special passenger with us. Strapped to our back luggage rack was a stuffed Wire Hair Fox Terrier who got to wear Darby’s collar. It was great to have her with us even though she wasn’t. It was great to go on that ride so that we got out of the house….even though it did sprinkle or rain on us almost the entire time until we got back into our driveway. There was a moment on the ride though that just made us smile. The parade part was long, took us about a hour or more to finish and during this part there was a ton of people on the side of the streets watching us. During this entire trip we saw two dogs, a black lab and a wire hair! It was the strangest thing to see another wire hair out, they are not a popular breed so you don’t really ever see them but there one was. Luckily my aunt and uncle who also had their bike in the ride saw the dog as well so we knew we weren’t just seeing things.
So thats’s it. I just had to write something up. Therapeutic I guess but it just needed to be done just like I felt I needed to scrap everything in this blog and start over again.
Darby you will forever have a special place in my heart and I love you very much.
This last week has really sucked. The past few days have been extremely draining and emotionally painful. As I write this though things are slowly getting better or I am getting better at coping with it, its one of the two.
Last Sunday our Wire haired Fox Terrier Darby started acting strangely and not herself. We got her into the vet the next day and she was very lethargic and in pain. The vet started treatment for pancreitist since that was his guess, there was also some x-rays done. So her treatment was done by IV each day and we took her in and dropped her off before work. She was starting to respond and then on Wed I went home to get her at lunch since neither of us could get her there in the morning. She had thrown up and wasn’t doing well at all. We booked an appointment for her to get a ultrasound at University of Illinois vet clinic about a hour away and took here there that afternoon. She woke up that morning and gave me a few kisses to show me that her tongue was still working somewhat. It’s the one thing she would do every morning and I had really been missing it. They shaved her belly down a little then gave her the ultrasound. She had multiple pancreatic abscesses along with fluid build up and something that might have been cancer. Even if they did surgery the outcome wasn’t good. After having a breakdown there in the waiting room we decided to bring her home.
We came home Thursday for our last night together. Her original parents came over to the house to say goodbye to her. She wasn’t feeling well was on pain meds so she was there enough to say her goodbyes as well. Friday morning we went into the vet for the last time and I held her head as she went to sleep.
I had told Tracy once that I had never had such a bond with an animal before. I was pretty much useless on Friday and wasn’t all the well the rest of the weekend either. We had only had her 3 years but she had become such a integrated part of the household that things aren’t the same without her. Her “brother”, Rufus, isn’t sure what is going on either. He keeps giving us looks like he wants to know when Darby is coming home. Those two had bonded as well and it is easy to see his sadness as well. Plus I think he might be getting made at me since I keep picking him up to cuddle. He’s not into cuddling much.
The week prior to all this we had signed up to do the Ride For The Cure to benefit breast cancer research. We still took the ride Saturday and we had a special passenger with us. Strapped to our back luggage rack was a stuffed Wire Hair Fox Terrier who got to wear Darby’s collar. It was great to have her with us even though she wasn’t. It was great to go on that ride so that we got out of the house….even though it did sprinkle or rain on us almost the entire time until we got back into our driveway. There was a moment on the ride though that just made us smile. The parade part was long, took us about a hour or more to finish and during this part there was a ton of people on the side of the streets watching us. During this entire trip we saw two dogs, a black lab and a wire hair! It was the strangest thing to see another wire hair out, they are not a popular breed so you don’t really ever see them but there one was. Luckily my aunt and uncle who also had their bike in the ride saw the dog as well so we knew we weren’t just seeing things.
So thats’s it. I just had to write something up. Therapeutic I guess but it just needed to be done.
Darby you will forever have a special place in my heart and I love you very much.